help me find a fanfic?

[ratcreature]

I'm trying to find a Bucky post-WS recovery story again (one among the many I've read). It was, at least partly, a therapy fic, and I remember really liking the therapist OFC. There was iirc quite a bit of therapy detail, I think some sensory PTSD coping mechanism with touching objects, and another feature that stood out was that the therapist in her regular practice worked with traumatized children? I'm not sure about other details, because TBH a lot of stories kind of blur together in my mind.

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[bluemeridian]

My best guess is Circling Back by Chaya - ch. 22 would be the one where the therapists are first onscreen, so to speak. I'm pretty shaky on whether that's it or not, though. The only other one I remember that stands out with a therapist OFC was, iirc, SHIELD employed.

[ratcreature]

Thank you, though I don't think that was it, although I've read that one.

I'm fairly sure there were scenes in the therapist's office (and it wasn't at SHIELD, I don't think), and she gave him some small objects to ground him in the present? And it wasn't that story with the therapist who is a child of holocaust survivors and Bucky stays with her for a bit in her house (this one).

There is a bunch of therapy fic in my bookmarks, but I must have failed to properly bookmark and tag this one. *curses* I've been slacking with that since I've been reading mostly on mobile devices, and now that comes back to bite me. It is so frustrating. I don't even know any ficfinding comms for the MCU. Does something like that exist on Tumblr? Like you submit asks or such?

ETA: There might have been some rape recovery and Bucky worked with that therapist because she worked with sexual abuse victims, only usually children? I think Bucky was fairly functional overall, despite the PTSD, like it wasn't extreme Hydra Trash Meme.

[bluemeridian]

Ah! I'm far less likely to have read it I think, if that's the case. And I really don't remember that therapy method, so I'm pretty sure I haven't.

There's nothing like the finding comms on Tumblr so far as I know - and I hear you on the frustrating. Both in the losing the fic and the mobile thing. I finally broke down and ordered a portable keyboard to use on my tablet and phone. I still won't have it out and about really, but I will when I'm curled up in bed with my tablet or when travelling. I'm still staring at my unread bookmarks with wild indecision but at least it's making it easier to bookmark other people's reading. ;)

[ratcreature]

It drives me crazy when I can't find a fanfic. That was the main reason why I started to tag stories with dozens of things to begin with, but that takes some upfront effort for the payoff not to spent days clicking through hundreds of fanfic stories in the hopes of finding something. But typing in that many tags on a touchscreen is just awful, even with a bookmarking app doing some autocomplete.

I've actually encountered that sensory grounding coping method in several fanfics as well as in pro stories, so either it is a legit PTSD therapy thing or a fictional meme.

And it figures that Tumblr once again lacks vital infrastructure. I guess I could try posting the query to my tumblr, but that has like twenty followers because I post so rarely so that's not exactly a wide net (unlike my Tumblr that I used to post McAvoy with sloths pasted in the pictures for a while, that still has 7500 followers and still gains new ones despite having been inactive for three years now).

[(Anonymous)]

Was it Lilies With Full Hands by Refusals?

[sianna21]

Just posted anonymous so just in case it didn't work:

it sounds like Lilies With Full Hands by Refusals.

http://archiveofourown.org/works/1614746/chapters/3439820

[ratcreature]

Thank you! That was it! I even looked at it when going though my bookmarks but thought it must have been another one when the first therapist I found when skimming it was a guy. I didn't check far enough to get to the therapist switch.

(Your anon comment also got through fine, I just screen them after some problems in the past.)