gaaah!

[ratcreature]

I have a killer headache, my throat is scratchy, my nose stuffed, and I woke up from a nightmarish dream where I was chased through tower structures during some kind of flooding event, that was damaging them, so I had to scramble over waterlogged, bloated corpses (no idea why they were already bloated when the flooding was happening just then), nearly drowned in some pipe/tunnel thing next to one, and all of that somehow was happening as I was trying to get through an excruciating (and general anxiety inducing) family dinner thing at the place. There were other horrible things too. Thanks a lot subconscious!

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[hugglewolf.livejournal.com]

*hugs ratcreature*
They say that all dreams have a meaning, but I dunno. Some of mine are so far out and disturbing that I don't want to even think what that says about me. And the ones that you can't shake upon waking, that leave you all shivery throughout the day, they're the worst.

Hot chocolate and a funny movie, that'll shift it. :)

[ratcreature]

As far as dreams go it wasn't all that bad or freaky, that is I didn't wake up from it like after a real nightmare. I mean, not like when I was watching "Dexter" and having fannish serial killer dreams, for example. For the most part I like fannish dreams, but not that one. Or dreams of masses of crawling insecs erupting from things, those are worse too. Or dreaming of having awful infected skin rashes with erupting pustules that hurt throughout the dream. Somehow I find dream of illnesses and injuries you never even experienced in RL especially gross, like I have a recurring nightmare theme of my teeth crumbling and falling out as a background in regular dreams, so that I'm spitting blood and broken teeth throughout, and that actually happened frequently enough for a while that it now brings me into somewhat lucid dreaming when that progresses and I can make myself aware that it is a dream. Also I don't wake up from pain in dreams, so sometimes I'm hurting from the stuff throughout the dream. Once I had a nightmare with bunnies and fundamentalist Christians preaching at me, that was disturbing too.

I have no idea why my recurring dreams couldn't be of flying or something. I dreamt I was flying a few times and that was always very pleasant.

[hugglewolf.livejournal.com]

Can you wake yourself from your lucid dreams? Because sometimes, I just know it's not real, but it doesn't help.

I commonly have 'disaster' dreams...nuclear war, mysterious apocalyptic dreams, and they really unsettle me. I never seem to have happy dreams, or at least if I do I don't remember them. *sighs*

Dreams are weird!

[ratcreature]

Sometimes I can wake myself up, but I can't really do lucid dreaming, so that I had real control, though I tried to learn for a while.

My worst nightmares are the really mundane ones, e.g. where you are trapped in some bureaucracy, that start out harmless, and then get worse and worse. Like I had one where I was in hospital and had to get to a treatment in time, but before that I had to get a form filled out or something, and the bureaucracy got ever more convoluted. Like first I got to the place that I thought would deal with me, and I had plenty of time, but it wasn't the right department, then I first needed another form or stamp from somewhere, or they had moved a place around because of renovations, and the signs were weird and hard to make sense of, and that process went on and on, each one sending me elsewhere. And all the people were seemingly reasonable and helpful, more so actually than in a real bureaucracy, but still made me feel inept and stupid and taking up their valuable time, like I should know all this already. And the other people also waiting all had conflicting advice for me how I should proceed when I asked them instead of the official people. Meanwhile the deadline where I had my appointment for which I needed this form got closer and closer, and I got more and more frantic and anxious. I woke up absolutely terrified and soaked in sweat, and it took quite some time to get that it all wasn't real.

But at least I also have nice dreams that I remember too. Sometimes I have fannish dreams, especially if right before sleeping I watch several episodes or read a book. Those are often great, if a bit weird (like an SGA/DS x-over dream with Ray Kowalski and John Sheppard teaming up to solve a crime in a travelling circus-- it had a plot and everything and was very pretty too).

I very often remember my dreams right after waking up, but then forget them quickly unless I write them down or they are really bad nightmares. But the good ones I forget more quickly. For a while I was better at remembering because I kept a dream diary right on my nightstand so I'd wake up after a dream (that was when I wanted to learn lucid dreaming), and write everything down without any delay, rather than just trying to remember. But I got out of that habit. Actually even after writing them down while I still remembered everything, I'd still forget them after I was really awake and had breakfast and then it's really weird to read your own dream details that you don't recall anymore.

[hugglewolf.livejournal.com]

You should right that SGA/DS Circus story. *g*
I might keep a dream diary. I'd love to know from a professional what they all mean!