gaaah!

[ratcreature]

I have a killer headache, my throat is scratchy, my nose stuffed, and I woke up from a nightmarish dream where I was chased through tower structures during some kind of flooding event, that was damaging them, so I had to scramble over waterlogged, bloated corpses (no idea why they were already bloated when the flooding was happening just then), nearly drowned in some pipe/tunnel thing next to one, and all of that somehow was happening as I was trying to get through an excruciating (and general anxiety inducing) family dinner thing at the place. There were other horrible things too. Thanks a lot subconscious!

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[ratcreature]

Sometimes I can wake myself up, but I can't really do lucid dreaming, so that I had real control, though I tried to learn for a while.

My worst nightmares are the really mundane ones, e.g. where you are trapped in some bureaucracy, that start out harmless, and then get worse and worse. Like I had one where I was in hospital and had to get to a treatment in time, but before that I had to get a form filled out or something, and the bureaucracy got ever more convoluted. Like first I got to the place that I thought would deal with me, and I had plenty of time, but it wasn't the right department, then I first needed another form or stamp from somewhere, or they had moved a place around because of renovations, and the signs were weird and hard to make sense of, and that process went on and on, each one sending me elsewhere. And all the people were seemingly reasonable and helpful, more so actually than in a real bureaucracy, but still made me feel inept and stupid and taking up their valuable time, like I should know all this already. And the other people also waiting all had conflicting advice for me how I should proceed when I asked them instead of the official people. Meanwhile the deadline where I had my appointment for which I needed this form got closer and closer, and I got more and more frantic and anxious. I woke up absolutely terrified and soaked in sweat, and it took quite some time to get that it all wasn't real.

But at least I also have nice dreams that I remember too. Sometimes I have fannish dreams, especially if right before sleeping I watch several episodes or read a book. Those are often great, if a bit weird (like an SGA/DS x-over dream with Ray Kowalski and John Sheppard teaming up to solve a crime in a travelling circus-- it had a plot and everything and was very pretty too).

I very often remember my dreams right after waking up, but then forget them quickly unless I write them down or they are really bad nightmares. But the good ones I forget more quickly. For a while I was better at remembering because I kept a dream diary right on my nightstand so I'd wake up after a dream (that was when I wanted to learn lucid dreaming), and write everything down without any delay, rather than just trying to remember. But I got out of that habit. Actually even after writing them down while I still remembered everything, I'd still forget them after I was really awake and had breakfast and then it's really weird to read your own dream details that you don't recall anymore.

[hugglewolf.livejournal.com]

You should right that SGA/DS Circus story. *g*
I might keep a dream diary. I'd love to know from a professional what they all mean!