:(

I'm going to have to let Leo euthanized tomorrow. It looked briefly like he might be okay for a bit after all last week as his weight and eating stabilized, but he hasn't been eating right since last Friday, and the last two days he practically hasn't eaten anything, not matter whether I plied him with egg, pudding, Nutri-Cal, cooked food, anything...

And worse, his breathing has gotten really bad. Tuesday the vet tried some last ditch effort whether maybe some sort of passive anti-body injection on top of the other stuff he's been getting might help the symptoms, but he has not gotten better since, only worse. And he's been actually clingy today. I mean, he's always affectionate, but right now whenever come to the cage, he actually tries to climb onto me, and wants me to hold him, which he's never done before. Meanwhile his breath has become gasping today. I mean, his ears, mucous membranes and other skin I can see are still pinkish, so he's not quite cyanotic, but it's clear he can't breathe right anymore, and I assume that this running to me is a variant of breathing panic.

Right now I've actually turned on music, though I don't like background sounds normally, just so I don't have to listen so prominently to the horrible breathing noises he makes, because I can't bear it. Earlier I held him in my arms for a while, trying to soothe him, but obviously that wasn't all that helpful either. I mean, he runs to me, but it is not as if I can fix anything, so I hold him for a while, then he gets agitated again, but doesn't really know where to go either, doesn't want to be in his cage, doesn't want to be on me either... I assume he'd just like to be able to draw a breath.

So yeah. There are no other options.